a little creative expression

I can see no shore, just endless water. Its so cold, I quickly begin to lose feeling in my limbs. The waves lick my face, and the salt stings my eyes. Rain falls from the sky and slaps the water. The wind blows and the waves rise. I suddenly realize that I don't know how to swim. I begin to kick and scramble just trying to keep my head above the waves. They toss me from side to side. The waves begin to rise even higher. I'm lifted up towards the sky and I'm sent crashing back into the tempest below. This time my head goes beneath the water.

To my surprise instead of panic i feel relief. Down beneath the waves its still and quiet. I'm free from the freezing winds and bone crunching waves. I let my arms relax and I let my body sink slowly down. I lift up my head and open my eyes a crack. Above me is a kaleidescope of blue. I float there, weightless. I let my head fall back as I stare upwards. The light from the sky shoots shimmering beams through the water. They dance across my arms and legs. Here I am a star, glowing like they do in the night sky. I close my eyes, and try to absorb the light through my skin. I wish to shine like this always. 

Suddenly I feel a jolt of pain in ribs. Reality pours into my body and panic sets in. Air. I need air. I kick up as hard as I can. The light leaves my skin. Its cold, dark, and lonely again. I'm getting dizzy now. I scramble with everything I have but I've sunk so low. Panic begins to set in. Little speckles of black begin to appear. Suddenly I weigh a thousand pounds. I've lost connection to my legs. I can't kick. The speckles become solid. Now all is darkness. The pain gives one last agonizing stab. 

I feel a tug. I'm moving through the water again. The water flows smoothly across my skin. I feel my arm break the surface, then my shoulders, then my head. I gulp in. The salty air filling my lungs. I don't even try to stay afloat, i don't have to. I'm being held up. I feel another, even greater tug and I feel my entire body being lifted from the water. Then its dark again.

I'm laying on a hard surface. Its hard but not solid. I can feeling it contouring to the shape of my body. Its so warm. I open my eyes just a crack and am overwhelmed by the brightness of the light. With tremendous effort I turn my gaze over to my arm. The light dances of it. I close my eyes again and let my skin soak it in.