The worst part is not knowing how to feel, I don't want this horrible aching pit in my stomach to be here but at the same time if i felt nothing it would be even worse. There is no remedy for this kind of pain. You can't turn on a happy song, or watch a favorite movie. You can't eat comfort food. You can't eat at all. No relief comes from sleep, if you even can fall asleep there are still the dreams.

I didn't know Carly all that well actually, I met her a couple of times. I did know her sister Blake though. Blake has been one of my dearest and truest friends for so long now. We don't really hang out because we are in two different schools and have completely incompatible schedules, but Blake Henley has always been there for me when I need her. It was impossible to know Blake and not know of her sister. They were best friends, and Carly shined so brightly that she lifted and lighted the souls of more people than anyone could ever know. I feel for Blake so badly. I am almost consumed with grief for Carley and I can't imagine how Blake must be feeling. I can't go there, my mind won't let me. It puts up a guard every time I start to head in that direction. The direction of my own sister. The pain her family is facing now is a pain i hope to never know.

The only comfort that can be given, and thankfully this is the kind that works miracles, is the love of God. No other power out there has the power to patch what has been lost. The knowledge that there is a God in the heavens, that loves each and every one of us, and is aware of us, and is so eager for us to return to his loving arms where he can hold us and encircle us about eternally in his love warms me to my very soul. When perspective comes into place, you realize that your suffering will be but a small moment, and eternal joy and happiness, when this family is reunited once more is will come. This is what i can feel, yes sorrow, and grief, but never despair, for God is over all, and God is hope.